Intentions May Not Always Manifest Straightforwardly
Inviting in an intention might not always get you exactly what you want straight away.
There, I said it.
It's disappointing I know. We all want our dreams to work out exactly as we have planned in our minds. It's human nature to want to control each step as well as the outcome.
I'm going to share with you an intention I set recently, to illustrate my point.
I decided that there were three qualities that I would like to embody as a practitioner: to be open, grounded and positive.
I thought it sounded fairly straightforward too.
So I set my intention, and I announced to my peers that these were the qualities I would like my clients to find in me.
I know I already have each of these qualities within me, which flow into my work, to some degree. But clearly the Divine had more to reveal to me.
I think there is always more to be revealed - if we ask, if we intend. Simply by expanding my thinking, I initiated the start of this change.
In setting this intention, I was confronted with all of the places within myself that I am NOT positive, open or grounded.
In short, I started to feel negative, shut off, and found it hard to be fully grounded.
I was feeling restless, impatient, frustrated, irritated, hopeless. Not quite the positive feelings I had been thinking about as I innocently made my intention.
Zig-Zag by Neil Williamson
In my self-balances I found that I was disconnected to Source (God, or whichever word you use) and nature. I was struggling to just be, to have my feet on the earth and to relax into the present moment.
Not fully grounded or connected, feeling negative...and then I found myself armoured at my heart. How could I be open with the world from this place?
Luckily I have some tools in my toolkit after walking this path for some years now.
Meditation helped me to feel more grounded every day, and rekindle my connection to Source. I intentionally spent more time in nature, to go slow, and to simply be. This was quite a struggle to forget all of the external - and internal - demands and expectations.
Creative Kinesiology helped me to piece together the story and understand the roots of this (unconscious) problem. Just because some emotions/patterns are operating at an unconscious level does not negate the fact that they do have an impact and expression in how someone meets the world.
This was a tough process to be with for over a month, on this occasion.
During this time I came across a question that asked: "What pieces of wisdom have you learned so far in your life?"
My answers were to 1) Trust in my own intuition, 2) Trust in the universe (God) and 3) Breathe.
The irony struck me immediately.
I could feel I wasn't breathing fully. Of course, it's hard to breathe deeply when feeling negative and disconnected.
The breath connects us to Source and spirit. So I started breathing more deeply again.
And I had to sit with these difficult feelings for a number of weeks, taking it very slowly. Allowing myself to be, to open and to reconnect.
This was not a straightforward process as I first thought when setting this intention. But it was valuable, worthwhile and gave me an authentic practice to become more open, grounded and positive.
I hope this anecdote demonstrates that faith is at the heart of setting intentions, and it is faith that enables you to meet whatever arises.
Wishing you the best of luck and trust in the process for your intentions!
Need support to reach your goals, or balance through challenging times? Email bryony@creativesoultherapies.com